Halfway to somewhere.
Posted by Roberta Lipp on October 25, 2006
Today is my half-birthday.
Okay, sure, Mom over-indulged us a bit. It’s not like we got presents or half-cakes or anything, but it was a day to be aware of. I understand, now that I am an “adult” (always in quotes), that there are people walking around who do not know their half-birthday–at least not without figuring it out first. This astounds me.
So here I am, halfway to 42. Well, in actuality, halfway to 83.
When I look at the 42, I am sad. Tragically. No baby; none in the works. And I want one, and I don’t want one alone. I am not equipped emotionally, financially, or organizationally to have or raise a kid on my own. I want the package. Things not looking strong in that department (the Acquisitions Department).
I’ve been a little sad the last few days. Not related to this half (okay, non) birthday. Just some realities. Some balancing. Let the actors play the roles they want to play.
On the other hand, halfway to 83 is amazing. I can do this whole thing over again and still only be 83. That’s awesome.
deezee said
I just met a woman whose mom had twins at 48 (her hubbie is 17 yrs younger). You never know what’s in store, eh?
Roberta Lipp said
Thank you.
OhKen said
A very merry unbirthday to you……..
Roberta Lipp said
…to me?
Laura said
I’ve always been aware of my half birthday, probably just because it’s an easy one, January 1st.
P.S. I share your feelings about age, wanting a baby, wanting the whole package. I’m there too.
P.P.S. I love the hope, the inspiration, the beauty of your last line in this post.
Lisa said
I know. She has the best attitude about it.
Roberta Lipp said
Thank you both, L&L!!!
Deborah said
I’m November 4.
I think you do have a great attitude. The “old” numbers scare me.
fitena said
Age is just a number. You migt be feeling 22 now. See? you are ain’t you! Its relative! And as long as you live, everything is possible! Believe in that an the belief will make it possible! And kep on the positive attitude! Muaaah!
Fitèna
Seymour, MSW said
Um… You’re awesome.
This is my favorite blog ever.
Don’t you feel like we’re all bursting with so much potential– bursting at the seams– but with no outlet to burst?
Does that make any sense?
StupendousWoman said
Hi Roberta… Have been reading you from time to time. This post made me think, because I’m one of those who do not want children — but yet feel the desire to give something, leave something to the world.
And while I hope that you do get what you want, my suggestion is that a fulfilling life, and some form of legacy, can be achieved through other means. You touch people with your writing, your music, your everyday actions. Of course it doesn’t “replace” children, but it seems to me (for the very little I know about you) that you’re doing a darn good job so far. Hang in there.