what up with my blog?

It’s all different.

Where’s my picture?

My ‘Use your magic’?

Why are my categories on the left?

Where the HELL is my chiffon?

Stars fading but I linger on

I wish I could sleep a little later. It’s always an issue… I wake up too early, and then I’m tired. I have a very full day ahead of me, and I’m already beat.

That aside, I am feeling pretty upbeat.

My birthday was okay. Considering how sad I have been, I was genuinely worried about it. I can sink so low; I can never quite predict how sorry for myself I might feel. But I held up fine.

I received phone calls, emails, myspace comments, text messages, e-cards, a dinner, an ode-like poem, a card, a necklace, a lavender teddy bear, a haiku, a flower, frozen Soupman soup, two different balloons, a blog tribute, and a message board thread in my honor.

I have no business feeling unloved. Knowing this doesn’t help when that’s how I feel, but please. No business.

Friday FlowerBlogging

I greet my boss, Dave, each morning, with a borderline sarcastic Good Morning, Sunshine.

And also I had him read this blog, all about me and sunshininess.

So this, left for me on my desk on my birthday, was especially sweet.

And pretty! It’s been here since Wednesday, and it still looks… almost fake, it is so perfect. My camera phone does not do it justice.

(Thanks again.)

(Oh look! Snoopy is on his bike, in the corner. )

so make mine a double

My sister wrote me a birthday-non-ode!!!

(I am 21. Twice.)

the crumbling difference between wrong and right

It’s been rough.

And so much better.

Back and forth. And yet I do not feel too swingy.

I am feeling more alive and vibrant, more in my own skin, more consistent, and more… just more. than I’ve been in a while.

But I do get hit with the sad. I just let it come. So lately I am that girl… I am out, enjoying a meal with friends, and I’m having a nice time, but then I slip to the back of the conversation, my presence recedes, and if you happen to notice, I am a bit glazed over and on the edge of tears.

Waking Up is Hard to Deux

I tried it again this morning. I have no shame about looking like I look, but yesterday really was exceptional, in how strung-out scary I appeared.

So here.

Although, not gonna lie, I don’t know if this is much of an improvement. And therefore perhaps I do have shame. We need to move that along!

a review of Roman Holiday written by my friend Albert in an email

There were 115 things
that made Roman Holiday great.

#1. Audrey Hepburn.
#2. – #114: Each minute that Audrey Hepburn was on screen.
#115. It got me.

If you ever intend on being surprised by this movie
I will spoil it with this email.
You should not read it if you care that much.

I watched this movie over two nights.
After the first night  I was totally bummed out
and not looking forward to the rest of it.

Waking Up is Hard to Do

Neil made me do it. And Jessica started it. Well, all the cool kids are doing it.

The challenge was, post a Rise and Shine photo of yourself; what do you actually look like when you wake up?

Okay, in defense…

Saturday QuizBlogging… the day is dragon.

You scored as Dragon. Dragon: Now talk about a legend. These magnificent creatures are of many species. Some can be as large as the Earth itself, while others are as small as a mouse. One image that comes to everyone’s mind is the large, fire breathing Dragons that loathed humans and loved to sleep on massive piles of gold. Not all dragons have a bad reputation. Most dragons are very wise, caring, and protective. It would make a person very lucky indeed to meet a dragon. Especially if they walked away untouched. I admire your wisdom, for you are the Ancient Dragon. Mermaid 75% Dragon 75% WereWolf 59% Angel 59% Faerie 42% Demon 8% What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!) created with QuizFarm.com

Friday NephBlogging: like the cheese in a manicotti

Ben is very cute. Grandma bought him a… like a noodle for him to crawl through.