I feel incredibly refreshed.
Last week I got sick. Drippy, semi-conscious, pre-Captain Tripps. I am pure misery when I am sick. I had to miss two days of this freelancing gig, which is money lost. Friday I had planned on working but the sick caused insomnia and I was up between 2:30 am and nearly 5, the whole time racked with nervousness about how I would get up and how I would be functional. I finally sucked it up and realized that even if I possibly could get to work, there was no way it would be a healthy move for me, so I went out to the couch and put the tv on and slept.
I then went on to have a very bad weekend with Joe. Combined with a very good weekend with Joe. But mostly bad. I cannot possibly go into the details, but I was wounded and upset and just… disturbed. And very disappointed with myself for not ending it, and a little scared for me about that. Funny (or not so much) how quickly things change. Joe’s reentry was all light and flowery fields; remember that? Read the rest of this entry »
